sedikit PDA.

if you've ever been in love, you know that when things are smooth and stable, and you're happy, everything else follows suit. your days seem clearer, everything seems focused. the thing about human being is, they're so volatile. they can hug u, give u things, make u happy, make u laugh. but they can also scream at you, smash things, and some women might tell you, they can beat u up.

i guess when things go right we always forget about the unconditional love God has for us. i feel sad when i think of that, how i do a lot of wrong things, and run back to Him hoping, expecting for forgiveness. and with the list of betrayals i've done to Him around my belt, what did He do? He lets me live, gives me food to eat, comforts of life, brain to function by and to work on, and most importantly He lets me have time to say sorry. He doesn't beat me, smite me, abandon me. i mean, He's like the perfect lover. so i'm sure all my girl friends always have this extended list of what a perfect man might be like. i always say that mine is mr darcy or recently, edward bloom from big fish. tipulah kalau tak nak semua tu. i think while it is natural to gravitate towards searching for human love, maybe we shouldn't feel so lonely without, because we already are loved. and we, I especially, have to work on not betraying Him ever. and then maybe, just maybe.. He'll let me meet my mr darcy, for surely if He doesnt want that to happen, it wont. not in a million years. not ever.

i do feel embarrassed for writing this. entah apa2, tulis reflective things malu, tulis useless things tak malu pulak.it's just that i'm not really a preacher myself..i mean, how do you preach when all the words really slap you right back across the cheeks? i wish to be better, i just sincerely do.