There were many a time that the scene where she was in a boat choosing between the smoothest course or the wilder river would play out in my life. I draw into that feeling a lot.
Oh do you still wait for me, dreamgiver?
“Or (the state of a disbeliever) is like the darkness in a vast deep sea, overwhelmed with waves topped by waves, topped by dark clouds, (layers of) darkness upon darkness: if a man stretches out his hand, he can hardly see it! And he for whom Allah has not appointed light, for him there is no light” The Quran, 24:40